This is a very moving conversation between Guy McPherson, ecologist and Andrew Harvey, director of the Institute for Sacred Activism ...McPherson talks about his depression (what I have been going through the last month or so) in the realization of what science is evidencing-that human extinction will happen, relatively soon...at one point Harvey says this, which is where I was before, tripped in pain and  and where I have come back to again...

"There is a huge gift in this apocalyptic situation to us all-it makes absolutely clear he impermanance and precariousness of everything and BITCH SLAPS THE HUMAN EGO FINALLY and destroys all illusions...that can lead to paralysis, despair, inertia, horror-or it can lead to fundamental capacity to uncover in divine consciousness and act from that with peace, joy, and compassion-giving up the fruits of action-and THAT form of action is actually liberation- this situation is the perfect cauldron for the liberation of the human race from its own fantasies. A new kind of human being-an evolutionary shift. The liberated being acts out of compassion for love alone not for personal agenda. "

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mKkJb6IrV_U

"We have nowhere to go except deeply within"