9 years ago,  I got a certificate in Addiction Counseling to help women veteran's returning from the Iraq war with addiction they had developed in relation to war trauma and , as was happening then quite often with very young female soldiers, rape by fellow servicemen. I felt a calling to do it and then, the complex reality of the VA homeless shelter , where I did my internship, hit me- the dysfunction of addiction facilities which are predominately run by addicts themselves , the need to fill beds to get state funding encouraging a climate of non recovery- that women with war and rape trauma from the military would be anywhere else but the VA...but I learned so much. That was the year Amy Winehouse was topping the charts-addiction was in the air, the way to be, the way to escape....and I had an inside glimpse at something it would take me years to see...how the destruction of the environment -the choice to escape from it- to be indifferent to it, abuse and pollute it- the qualities of it that ARE US, the escape from our vital being-are also addiction-addiction to materialism becomes self  and nature and our inner connectedness to it becomes OTHER.  Many severe addicts, close to death, have a strong sense of coup de grace-I cannot die.  It is the worst trait of our Personality-there are no limits and we see this now with the 11th hour we are in with environmental collapse- we will be fine somehow no matter what we have done to profit off off nature. All indications, by science and the rational caring, say otherwise.